The naming of cats is a… Oh god I quoited Cats! But in truth I never really know a character until I name them. I have been playing with Zucchini for a year or two and just started really getting to know who these people are/were/will be. It’s weird though, with so many characters naming is maybe easier? I have NO idea what will happen with this script BUT it and Mythic are vying for room in my brain. Since mythic is well.. mythic and epic I thought getting Zucchini out of the way would be easier. HA! on me!!! ALSO applying for festivals is boring and annoying. ALSO we all really want to do Achilles again! That would be so cool! Also also, I need to make a submission timeline for Third! I guess life is good just the same. I am blessed every fucking day. I feel the climbing paying off.. we shall see. At times I don’t even know what that means 🙂 But I know i’m doing exactly what I want to be doing! And for that I am grateful. Isn’t every day another day to get to know you better? All the names i give myself. Some kind some not. I will be better at that. Right now? I’m a little tired and over worked, excited about desert property, and terrified of it, bored and annoyed at old enemies, making new buds, happy to be writing, frustrated with it, ya know.. life. Last night we did a ritual to be ok with the now. It made me realize how easily I can get frustrated and how that’s such a disservice to me and my work. Again: today I am different and the same and that person is not who I was yesterday and tomorrow he will be different.
OK this is childish but funny:
SO my new play The Third is really friggin’ funny! We had a reading and it played SO MUCH better than I thought t would. Especially scene 8!! I was like wow I’m kind of a genius! Trust. Rewriting is upon me. I have a cool idea for scene 2 on cell phone. Shall see. I think it might be a good script to send out. A lot of my stuff read really well, like Achilles…WHICh we are taking to Hawaii maybe!!! Cross it all! I have been cleaning up scripts to send out. I have to stop hating stage directions. Ah oh well. I re-edited First Elders, The Fabulous Adirondacks, which I need to do another reading of, Achilles, and Mo-mo. And of course The Third. I almost sent out Faerie Love Lost, but I don’t think it’s a good read and it’s so dark! I think that’s a script some college will do someday. Oh also, Mythic is firming up! Fun! Don’t know if I can shoot it soon but maybe ALSO ALSO Zucchini outline is fierce! Just sayin’
Yup weird month. Why is July always so weird? Anyway I am thrilled to be doing Fringe Encore Producer’s Award shows! I know it’s only 2 more shows but hey it’s two more shows!!!! I WANT EVERYONE in the world to see this show! I might be changing my mind as to the next festival to apply to…We shall see. Brighton sounds fun but I can’t do Brighton Dublin and Orlando. Even being me 🙂
Ok it’s time to say it: My Dad died. He was in and out of hospice, homes and hospital for the last few months (ok last few years but really intensely last few months) and of course, being him :), it got real bad just as I entered Fringe. Uhg. My sister in a panic and upset said “If I just knew when Dad was going to die so I could plan!” and I said, “easy. Just pick the most inconvenient day!” We laughed and of course I was right. It’s made fringe harder but, maybe, more important. I mean, I am doing a play about how important and beautiful life is and how we hand joy down….. I am sad. But choosing to embrace fond memories and let go the bad ones.
Oh Lordy I do love fringe!! It’s like a few thousand like-minded people just doin’ mother-fuckign art! I have had amazing houses and standing ovations BUT the best thing has been this feeling… this really quiet thingy…. ok I am so not expressing this well 🙂 But like, the first show was spastic and the second better and now the third… I just sort of relaxed into it. People were crying after the show and I felt like..calm, peaceful. Like a shaman who is there for the aftermath. There for them. And when people say your show is amazing all I can think is: I know. But not even in a cocky way more just peaceful… It’s kind of life changing…the calm.
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So next Tuesday is my tech for the fringe!!! I’m not nervous or anything. We are so fucking ready it’s sort of ridiculous. I mean if anything I’m concerned how unconcerned I am!! I hope tix sell well. I really want people to see it! I have to say getting a grant makes everything so much easier! At some point i need to do a year planner of where I’m going with this next!! I wonder how the 60 min version will be? I finished The Third. Why did I write that again? Obsess much LeBarron? H ah ha it’s done it’s funny. I will probably never do anything with it! But then again… who friggin’ knows! The pic of AJ and I has nothing to do with this post: So there! Yes I’m rambling….