SO summer happened. My Birthday party was fun. I crashed (as usual) from Fringe Fest. Rewrote Nerd Anarchy. Wow that was hard. I had to download a work flow chart program to keep track of the changes and new endings!! Everyone seems to really like the new version! Now to research where and when to do it again!!! Muahh hahha! I finished Mourning at Magoge. I think it’s pretty cool. Yes it will be my next ebook! Of course I don’t really know what to do with the first one, but maybe having two I can push them harder. I haven’t yet truly found their audience. I also vacillate on the homo thing. SO I have decide the next Fantastical Fiction will be pa short story from Propensity. (and that’s a a romantic gay scifi story so there….) On an even better-er-er note I am mid writing 3 Numbers in the Middle of Nowhere. Can you say AWESOME?!?!?!?!! Yea it’s kind of really good. Well at the mid point, we’ll see if I fuck it up I didn’t write an entry last month. No reason. I got a tad dark. I got all caught up in finalities and other people’s score cards. It’s all right. You gotta go there sometimes. but then it’s important to remember what’s important. I think Mike in ICU helped facilitate that. So sad. So terrifying. Take the feeling, the pain, the truth of it all, and put it in your belly. Let it define you do not ignore it. Be stronger. Oh and this picture is sacred water I made for Rebecca and Dan’s wedding. Super magick!!!!
MONDAYS TO LIVE BY
It was a ridiculous time. Life was unkind. It’s a period of your life when you explicitly remember certain details but so much is a blur of the person you became. The details still haunt me. I was poor as a church mouse’s pagan nephew. I tried really hard to be grateful for my crappy job as security at minimum wage but it was, as I said, crappy. I was afraid. I was weak. I knew 2 people in all of Los Angeles. Oh yea, and every morning I woke shaking from drug withdrawals. It was that, ok I’m gonna say it, Karen Carpenter time when I had stopped the destructive behavior but my poor skinny body and broken spirit might not be strong enough to make it through the next day.
Oh wait what’s going on? What’s happening? People are laughing? Oh snap! That’s right I’m doing a comedy! Seriously this is what went through my head at the last show! It’s been a while since I did an out and out comedy. Just on stage being silly. Don’t get me wrong there’s some sweet moments but yea: funny! We, that means me, are such comedy snobs. Somewhere we got told, and I think before acting class so I can’t blame them, that drama is more important or more artistic than comedy. Like somewhere in my brain examining the human condition is more relevant when crying. How stupid is that! This isn’t so much a post as much as I want to write this down so I remember: one of the greatest gifts that was bestowed upon me, and for which I practice daily gratitude, is my sense of humor. I miss being a clown. Making people laugh is the best magick EVER! I need to cast more spells.
I love this pic a lot! First of all if you haven’t gotten tickets yet WTF?!?!?! Get them now!!!!! Ok that wasn’t supposed to sound as angry as it did I’m not super concerned with tickets sales YET more concerned with music changes I am trying to keep up with! The play is pretty funny. It’s nice doing something ridiculous and silly. We’re just having fun and singing some cool songs; it’s as simple as that. Hopefully I can post us singing soon. Am I stressed? Kind of. But stressed in a good thespian way not tyrannical producer way. In other things: Still writing Magoge. It’s really dark. Sometimes I can’t work on it cause I just can’t get that down ya know? But it’s still streaming on Fantastical fiction. Where you can also buy my ebook Coriander:Orders of Blood. (I’ve been taking out some ad space we shall see if that = sales. This is all so new to me!!!!) AND this new bulletin: Andrew and I are going legit! Non profit here we come!! So excited about this news!!! Ok back to listening to my vocal tracks a thousand times before Tuesday
Hello dear old friend and enemy you Fringe you! Raise an army if you will for I have returned! (maniacal laughter) I see you’ve grown stronger and more challenging…I shall not be defeated! I will create art, have fun and drink beer with thespians. Try and stop me! I know, I know, I was going to take a year off but Will and I had so much fun writing the music we had to make it happen. So glad we did…well glad now we’ll see June 9th if I still think this was a good idea:) Yes people I am Fringing again this time with a fantastical musical Nerd Anarchy! It’s ridiculous fun and such a nice change from last year’s heavy hitters (I mean that in a loving way) Don’t forget Coriander is an ebook so feel free to buy that while you’re buying tickets to my play!!! Doing it people!!!!