So here’s me at Hobbit Restaurant and below is me as a cop model (she fattened me up, swear!). August has proven to be fun (more fun than fucking July) and again I find myself at more crossroads and unsure steps. I love 3 Numbers. I will rewrite but need more time to feel it out, how it can go or where it needs to wander. If you remember that fucking play almost killed me I can’t imagine how I’m going to survive the rewrite. When I get dark…. On a lighter note: Marc Silvia is directing me in Mo-mo. So lovely. I am so thrilled to be putting this show on it’s…heels? I also really want to do some film. I have a few arty ideas like Knot Now and Blue poem, BUT, I think, between Louis re-editing HH and Off Stage On I can really make a continuable product. God that sounded weird but you know what I mean. I miss video work. I think I burned out on it a few years ago after Wicca so now maybe I’m ready to shoot some shit! I just can’t make the same mistakes. And that’s the hard part. Same with 3 Numbers. Think through David, carry the idea to its logical conclusion and alternatives. I’m really glad I started reading Entrepreneur magazine but come on 🙂 ha ha I’m off for a little desert time. Perhaps all the answers will come…or perhaps I’ll bliss out and not care, which is an answer too. Peace.
July is weird. It always is for me. Typically the first half of the year I am SO productive but then summer hits and I get all blah nah whatever. Maybe it’s the weather. I mean it is friggin hot in LA!!! But this year I am trying something new: I am trying to be ok with my mood and chill-nees. I am tryuing to not beat myself up and say: do more work harder. I think that only leads to frustration. I mean come on t’s not like I’m a slacker I wrote Dandy and the queen for the 10 minutes fest, I finished and edited 3 numbers and Mo-mo. I did video for June 4th 3F show. I have to learn to respect the process and not push the process. I have this cool idea about a unicorn boy…and I really need to do something filmy!!! Maybe Knot now? maybe something easier???? Or at least shorter. Haven’t done film in like what 3 years?? Uhg!!!! I want to revisit LeBarronisms but I have to wait till my summer slacker goes away!!! 🙂
Writers work alone. We spend hours clicking keyboards and jotting notes, all by our little lonesome, until the finished project is ready for public consumption. Most of us have learned, the hard way, never to talk about a project before it’s done. It saps the energy you should be saving for the clicking. Talk later-write now. Sometimes, however, it gets lonely and you need to chat with your fellow humans and, often, the only thing you have to discuss is your project because god forbid you stop writing long enough to get laid. Continue reading
Ok so June, huh? I’m back and figuring out my summer. We just finished June’s pride show Art Out! It was great. Hot as hell but great! May was nuts prepping that show and seeing my nephew AJ off to his next adventure. Also I think I needed downtime. I finished 3 Numbers and the Mo-mo rewrite, now entering notes from the Tom meeting, which was amazing! I also performed Medea piece. So, a lot of typing was happening AND a lot of thinking. I dropped the ball on Coriander. I decided I needed to write a short story for him but all my ideas are long, so I’m rethinking it. No one publishes long on going pieces apparently. Oh well,I still just do him for me! I am considering Knot Now again. I can’t let it go so we shall see. Also the Sarah Sucker thing is tapping on my shoulder. As is Sassy Scarf. I want to do all of them BUT I have stay focused on Mo-mo. I want the show it be…well saying good sounds stupid..I want it to be an achievement. Is that weird? I am concerned if I don’t completely focus on making Mo-mo happen it will not be an achievement of the sort I want, simply a good/fun show I did. Which is too an achievement. I am talking in circles. I think I know what I mean. It occurs to me hanging out at Urban Social House cafe trying to think about what I should work on is such a luxury! Again I am blessed, but again, so many ideas make my brain hurt. It’s like: thanks Muses thanks Goddess, I don’t dare ask for less but could it slow down???? Ha! As if. WHo would I be if not that weird writer with too many ideas I also came up with an awesome idea for Loki as a Fosse piece! Halloween???
Sometimes, after banging my head against the wall for a few days, I remember that writing isn’t about solving or answering or getting it right. If your characters and situations are solid they tend to solve things and answer questions as they arise. There is very little right or wrong. The cruel bitch is trying to figure out what questions to ask. I am putting this here to remind myself (but you can read it too).