Sometimes, after banging my head against the wall for a few days, I remember that writing isn’t about solving or answering or getting it right. If your characters and situations are solid they tend to solve things and answer questions as they arise. There is very little right or wrong. The cruel bitch is trying to figure out what questions to ask. I am putting this here to remind myself (but you can read it too).
I think I’ve come to loathe taglines. You spend a ridiculous amount of time writing something, anything, draft after draft and then…. it’s all done! Phew! I did it! Now could you please condense all your effort into a sentence. Thanks. And btw that might be all anyone EVER reads. EVER! I get it. I can’t read everything I See. A tagline or very brief synopsis let’s me decide if I give it a go. (like a cool t shirt) But writing them after you finished your own script is so painful! I have done the exercises too. When you write the tagline first. Or the pitch before it’s done, It helps focus the work. “It’s about….” helps make you see what the hell it’s about. Duh. Get it. BUT somewhere between “knowing what you’re writing about” and the “final-ish draft,” the play tends to write itself. Ya know. It becomes what it has to become. It tells you what to do. If the characters don’t suck they have logical conclusions. When “the end” is written it may be very different than the sentence you started with. Even if it is the same exact story, which is ok, you still have to write a grabbing exciting enticing enriching, ok maybe not enriching, tagline. Which sucks. I find it reductive and patronizing! UHG!!!Ok sorry I had to get that out. I have a deadline and need a tagline. Now I can stop whining and do it. OH btw my tagline so far is: After 22 years of his mom in hospice, Lonn, a 90s NYC drag queen, can only find escape lip-synching for his life and flirting with a hot retired UPS guy. (That sucks in case you’re wondering.)
Back from PV! What a great vacation! I did absolutely nothing.. except jones to write. Which is kind of why I went but not really. I just need to go and be somewhere…no in hindsight, I needed to know that soon, in a few months, I would be elsewhere. I remember once in group someone said how he needed gold stars on the calendar, events or trips in the future to get him through some of the dreariness. I guess that’s what I needed. It worked. HAPPY FULL MOON btw. Trying to figure out what I am doing in 2016. The list is too long. Nerd Anarchy re-boot. Coriander continuing. Propensity revisited. Chris and my H-wood show. Finished 3 Numbers now what? Almost done with Mo-mo now what? Wanna perform more. Wanna take a class. Producing WeHo. Trying to keep this updated. New diet and eating regiment. And of course the whole buying piece of the desert drama! UHg no wonder I needed some time off! Basically I’m me. I have to many ideas about too many things. Most people struggle with having time or energy to write or create my struggle is WHAt to work on? I guess I should feel blessed. I do. I just sometimes wish I knew where to focus my over active brain machine! One step, one day, one paragraph and see what takes hold…..
I am reminded of Dr. Martin Luther King’s words: If you cannot do great things do small things in a great way. It has been in my mediations for a few weeks now. What are great things? What are small things? How do You do them greatly? What kind of person I am might be buried in those answers. Lately, I must confess, I have been a bit jealous and beating myself up a lot. It’s been hard to get really writing because some part of me has felt that it is useless. Another script sits on my laptop for what? That is not why I write and I have forgotten it. I write this now to remind myself.
So much information I receive is like if you aren’t an A-list actor or multi-million movie maker you have failed. It’s just wrong information and lies. Smiling at someone is a great action and it is small. Making art can often be a great thing and it is often made up of small things. It effects people in tiny tiny ways and sometimes greatly and sometimes only a tiny amount of people…greatly. I cannot let things like other people’s thermometers or ideas slowly cripple me. That would be the worst thing ever.It would be worse than giving up. I must remind myself again.
We just did APT 3F YEs Sir and the boys were fantastic. Not all of them were slick professionals, and we went well over time limits but it was so honest and sincere I felt so proud to be apart of the show. I want to show everyone how to have a voice and to turn that into something greater than they. I said at the beginning of the show, I was brought up in Silence = Death then perhaps Sharing = Life.
I may off the MLK intent but I feel we do great things all the time. I don’t just mean activism work: teaching kids, Kageno, curating queer art. Great things like forgiveness. Practicing love.
In a funny note: Here’s a meme I did getting ready for the show! In a second funny note Chris and I figured out the structure of our Hollywood show. I think it’ll be very funny and have a great message. Ah, there it is again: great. To do great things is not about great financial wealth. It is about being great. If you cannot plan for peace by war or achieve love thru hate perhaps you cannot be great for any other reason than being it?
Side note: Nina Simone on Dr Martin Luther King Jr.
2016 I own you! ha ha OK been a weird and too busy end of 15…too much man. I am in much better spirits than previous overwhelmed David was. Mike’s death and memorial took a lot out of me. As well as some chosen and bio-family issues and growing pains (when do they stop?) Know Now got rewritten and is really sweet. I don’t think I can shoot it in Jan because well, it’s January! Maybe soon though. Yes Sir! Stories dressed in Leather is happening Jan 24th at Precinct. It seems pretty rad!! I hope hope hope it’s as awesome as I think it will be! That’s the pic of Marcus I took!!!! Lebarronisms is being edited. One minute I think they’re awesome and the next I look stupid. I will finish them and put them up and get some feedback……. I’m stuck rewriting 3 Numbers. In a good way but hard way. I think I need a week or two to simply write write write!! Speaking of which, WTF with Coriander? Do I continue it or go to Propensity? Today is the deadline for me and I still don’t know…. I might write a chapter of propensity and see if I like it??? There’s so much I want to do in 2016 but I want to do it smarter? This post reads as sad or confused and I’m not. A lot going on already and I really want this year to rock! So yea 2016 you are mine and we shall be amazing!!!